So, a couple weeks ago i had a cancer scare. I went to the doctor and got my breast checked and had to go back at a later date to get blood tests to ensure all was well. I called my dad and told him what was going on, he assured me that there was still a balm in Gilead and that he will join me in prayers. I then had to go back to the doctor last Monday for the result of the test and as i sat in the waiting room for about 3 minutes that felt like 3 whole hours or more, so many things ran through my mind like: “this could be my final months on earth”, “what do i do if i have cancer?”, “what questions do i ask the doctor?”, “Is it benign or malignant? Has to be benign right?” “I have always wondered what Jesus looked like but i may see Him soon after all”, “Is it time to go to heaven and see mum once again?”. Just so many thoughts came rushing in. My thoughts were interrupted as the doctor said Kipazze? Come with me please. I followed and he asked to shut the door and take a seat which i did and he started. “So, about 10 days ago you came with symptoms blah blah blah, have they increased or reduced?” I explained to Him, he sat there and started reading back to me the complaints i made and i nodded in affirmation. He then went ahead to say “your liver is in great shape, your kidneys are okay, your sugar level is normal, your blood count, Haemoglobin, Neutrophils, Lymphocytes and all are perfect even though there is usually one off for must people yours was perfect”, I stared and in my lack of Faith i waited for the “BUT” but it never came!!! That was it, i was fine after all.
As i walked out the office relieved, I felt the love of Jesus yet again, I felt these words “second chance”, “Love”, “healing”, “father”, “Love again” all of which are the qualities of our ever Loving God. It reminded me of the little things we neglect; if we don’t get sick, we will not know God as the healer, if we are not lonely, we will not know him as a friend, if we don’t have enemies, we will not know him as the deliverer so quit complaining and thank Him in the storm! Often times we older Christians are guilty of feeling too relax and serving God has become like an everyday thing and we no longer marvel at the things God do, we no longer feel zealous for Him, we get so used to everything and forget to honour the creator of the creation. We take things for granted.
All i can think of are the words of this song by Vicky Beeching “May i never loose the wonder, the wonder of the cross; may i see it like the first time standing as a sinner lost. Undone by mercy and left speechless watching wide eyed the cross! May i never loose the wonder, the wonder of the cross!!!
I leave you with this Ephesians 3: 16-19. Vs 16 & 17 says: I pray that from His glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with the inner strength throughHis Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your heart as you trust Him… NLT
Below are some photos i took in church early April 2015. Have a look and enjoy!
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